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shopping bag ideas
Poster of my second BiTS labo “Hanggang Kamatayan” show in my studio
Raf knows what he’s doing
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Headache all day! Nothing’s done what’s been planned! Way to go Eugene!
28 november 2k13
The failure keeps you humble, the failure keeps you motivated. As any platonic love so fragile and so far far away. And as nothing is worth doing anyways, everything appears to be possible just by giving it a shot, since there is nothing to lose in this game in the first place. So you try, you fail, you try, you fail again! And for trillions NOs and IGNOREs, there will be one YES, and this result keeps the world and lights the fire!
If things are rushed, we get weakness and despair instead. There is nothing for us here, all is forced and you die by the end of the day. Another lesson learned, another mud tasted and each time it becomes sweeter and sweeter, like going home. Our forehead is organic, while our opposite wall is from concrete, so when our forehead heals and thickens under pressure, the opposite wall falls apart one grain of dust at the time. And then our heart is never the same, but there are no hedges either. And our wisdom mourns for everything diminished, lost and devoured.
Ergo, any triumph brings me more failure and more pain. And my soul spins the vicious circle of existence.
26 november 2k13
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Ann Demeulemeester quits and world becomes emptier.
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Today, all day, I cannot stop thinking about loyalty and the importance of its’ definition and in-depth comprehension of this word. Very unfortunately today’s society, or at least the one that surrounds me, lacks this concept in its entirety.
I guess only religious fanatics are the remaining breed who can be apparently classified as the ones who at least believe in abstract salvation as a part of the main motivation and fuel for their loyalty, although they are not quite usually honest with themselves and constantly contradict their views. But despite that we can say they are strong and unbreakable, until the greater god comes with sweeter lollypop, and I will be really curious where their loyalty vanishes then.
Politicians are not loyal to their homelands and their people, making business in the sake of power, not mutual interest. Economy makes decisions in the sake of profit, dumping local businesses for slavery workforce and cheaper suppliers. You can easily call it loyal to margins or material interest, why not, but is it healthy for personal progress? We can say it is normal and understandable on a global scale, obviously, for today’s society, which exploits the masses and feeds gods. But we fed gods in our pagan years somewhere between touching the black monolith B.C. up until WWII last century when Communists were loyal to 5 year plans, while Capitalists were loyal to the power of money and the idea of defeating Communists in the name of abstract democracy.
But putting all the sarcasm aside, I was really curious how this concept of loyalty really struggles within an individual human being. Firstly the majority has no precise vision or idea of what they want. In this case loyalty or devotion or ambition as a whole is entirely non-existent, since there is nothing to be loyal to, not even yourself, as we are what we actually do and put on the table, not what we fantasize or talk or bullshit about.
Loyalty is a heavy burden to bear and fulfill for those who pick one tiny little hook of hope and inspiration and start digging like madmen, but unfortunately it is the only realistic way. Slowly, carefully, monotonically, loyally. I also guess that it is one of the features of knights and heroes, who disappeared long time ago. And nothing is infinite or eternal. Will I remain loyal to myself or will I break! To be or not to be, that is the question to answer for everyone for themselves!
Loyalty is as abstract as truth, which is a completely personal concept and depends of the evolvement and strength of the human being bearing it. The stronger the personality, the more truthful and loyal it is to itself, all the rest is weakness and bullshit.
bullshit bullshit bullshit only bullshit… back to work
20 november 2k13
Кто битым жизнью был, тот большего добьётся.
Пуд соли съевший, выше ценит мёд.
Кто слёзы лил, тот искренней смеётся.
Кто умирал, тот знает, что живёт.
получил сегодня от мамы по имайлу.
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thank you wallpaper for the motivation